To The Person Who Emotionally Destroyed Me

Feb 02, 2019 by apost team

Imagine a young woman, lying in her bed late at night, desperately trying to hold back the tears that keep on coming. She doesn’t want to be that stupid cliché girl that cries herself to sleep at night over a boy.

She does everything she can to try to think of something else, anything else to keep the pain she’s feeling at bay. Her mind doesn’t cooperate despite her desperation, so she tries to confront the thoughts and feelings she’s having.

Nothing makes sense, but she still does what she can to try to rationalize everything that has happened to her. She just wants a sense of closure so she can move on from this breakup that has been a living hell for her, but that closure just won't come.

That woman was me, not too long ago. That scenario was my routine for countless sleepless nights that I spent thinking about you and the relationship we shared. I was that woman, feeling distraught and emotionally battered and broken.

I felt like there was no way out, and I couldn't figure out how to move on. I spent so many months feeling worthless and without value, all because of you.

It was me that spent month after month feeling terrible because nothing I did was ever good enough for you. I endured months of you not giving me anything that I needed: love, attention, security, and care, despite doing everything I could to make you happy. No matter what I did, you found fault in it. You took me for granted even though I was ready and willing to give up everything I had for you.

Even though you put me through hell, I don’t hate you.

As of today, I am not angry, upset, mad, or bitter anymore. Instead, I am free. Free from the emotional hold you used to have over me. Surprisingly, I am now thankful for the time we spent together. The lessons I learned have changed me as a person in so many ways. I am no longer the woman from before.

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You spent months manipulating and abusing me. You took everything I had until there was nothing left to give, and then you discarded me. At the time, I thought it was because I was failing; that you were so terrible to me because I wasn’t giving you what you needed.

I now know that the issues were never because of me. There was nothing I could have done to make you happy. It was always because of you. You were the one with demons and issues that needed addressing. You were the toxic one. You were the problem. Not me.

I now feel like I am slowly emerging back into society after traveling to hell and back. I am no longer your emotional prisoner. I am not the woman you saw me as; now I am strong, confident and smart. I deserve so much more than you could ever give me.

Because of you, I know to always demand respect.

I know now that I should never, ever settle for less than I know I am worth. I know now that I deserve someone that is honest and respectful. I know now that a partner should show gratitude and appreciation for everything I do for our relationship. I have you to thank for that. In spite of everything, I am grateful for that.

One day I will be with someone that will lift me up instead of bringing me down every day. I will be with someone that makes my happiness and well-being a priority over everything else. Someone who helps me overcome my insecurities and fears.

I will be with someone that would never take advantage of my weaknesses for their own personal gain. I will be with someone that is truly my better half. Someone that can't wait to see me at the end of the day and hates to be apart. Someone that makes me want to be a better person and makes me stronger for it.

I know now, because of you, I will be with someone who loves me.

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