I Don't Want To Let You Go, But I Have To

Aug 08, 2018

We have become two souls living completely separate lives. Being together forever just wasn’t in the stars for us.I can’t get rid of you no matter how hard I try. When I look at something, it reminds me of you. When I fall asleep at night, I see you right before I drift off. You’re in my dreams. I see you among the people I have to interact with. I see you sitting at the bookstore where we first met and had coffee together.

Even though you are gone you are still playing a very important role in my life.

You seem to just be there when I am trying not to think about you. You still play games with my heart. But somehow, you do seem to be disappearing a little bit at a time. It’s about time you left. I didn’t think I would ever begin to get over you. I never thought my heart rate would go back to the way it was. I could also never understand why things went so terribly wrong between us.

Wasn’t our relationship real? We both thought we would always be together, but that just wasn’t the case for us. Here we are, two souls leading two completely separate lives. I know what we had was something special. But I also know it is just a memory to be treasured.

I couldn’t accept the fact that we just weren’t meant to be together. I refused to accept that fate had different plans in store for us. Maybe I did need a little time and space to gain a better perspective on things. Maybe that is what I needed to come to terms with the fact that this just wasn’t meant to be. You and I are no longer a couple and I have to experience the pain and sadness to be able to move on.

Luckily, I am finally at the stage where I realize that what is happening is meant to be. I know that life goes on. Yes, it took me longer than it should to figure out. I was living in denial, but I’m okay now. I will likely never even run into you again. Our lives are just so different, and we don’t run in the same circles. We are both different people and we need to walk away from one another. Knowing that this is true is helpful, to be honest.

It is helping me accept the fact that we really are over.

That is what helped me get over you, knowing how different we really are. You’re not even the same person that I fell for in the beginning. You are long gone and in your place is someone I don’t even recognize. I need to move on with my life, for myself and my sanity. Yes, this journey has been a very long and difficult one, but it has also been a very necessary one. I’ve struggled but I overcame my demons. If I had not have experienced all of the hardships, I would not be in the place I am now.

I couldn’t move forward without all of the sadness teaching and shaping me. So while it is so hard for me to let you go it really is something I must do- for myself.

Do you have any words of wisdom to add? Then pass them on to your friends and loved ones.